We are raw and we are weary. Our week has consisted of a high in researching a shift to a tracheotomy to ease mom’s transition off sedation to a deep low, her stats plummeting yesterday and this option being put off for a bit. Do you know what is getting us through?You! The songs you have sent have ministered to our hearts and filled our minds with words of hope, the prayers you have lifted and sent to us, the texts, emails, flowers and food have been an example of the hope of heaven shining down on us. A friend shared that hope is clinging to a golden cord connecting us to heaven. The more we hold on to it, the more God bears our fears and burdens. In my mind, I see the four of us clinging to this golden cord, and as we get weary and our grip loosens, many of you come along side, placing your hands over ours to keep us connected.
Today mom remains in a pattern of being on her back for 8 hours and her tummy for 16. Her oxygen needs have come down ever so slightly and her medical team is adjusting, evaluating and fine tuning her vent settings. They did a blood transfusion last night which was positive and her white blood count continues to come down. Our prayers for the right antibiotic seem to have been answered.
We continue to call three times a day and through video conferencing, talk to mom. We laughed this morning when Maggie offered to give her number to the nurse who answered so mom’s nurse could call her back. The nurse said, no need, I know your number. If you know an ICU nurse at UAB please thank them for the grace and kindness they continue to extend to us. We rest in God’s word that tells us suffering produces perserverance.
Last night, following our call, my dad prayed. To hear a man married over 50 years pray boldly for healing but ultimately for God’s will is a powerful faith builder for his children. He continues to remind us to keep the faith!
Our prayer today is simple and straight forward. Please Lord, allow mom’s lungs to begin working again.
To all of you, thank you for helping us hold on to the golden cord.